flamefest:(you have been warned)
I just read the blog post yinrong was talking about just now and sometimes I just wonder whether RIWP'08 is really all worth it. Sometimes he just amazes me with how purely ignorant he is of the existance of people apart from himself. Today he when we were discussing the selection of the team he was saying that Shu Chin and Yan Sheng are really lousy and don't deserve the place and I was just commenting that Shu Chin and Yan Sheng are okay when him and Yuda just totally slammed me down and saying that as a keeper I know nothing. Not only that yinrong was also calling Yuda a bastard for posting "Out of the 6 secondary 3s: me, marcus, weishen, yinrong, kaiyu and andrew; only marcus made it into the team. I kind of prepared myself for that moment when my name won't be read out, 2 weeks before it I think, but it really still struck me hard in my heart though. I know I am not really expected to get in, given my size and my speed, which only began to pick up a little just 1 week ago when I learnt from Andrew and Danfer some techniques. But still, yea it does hurt. But we still went on with training and I tried to take it in my stride, but apparently some of my friends can't, or simply just refuse. Suddenly all of us are split into 'team players' and 'non-team players'. I asked myself: is this a team? I don't know about the others, but for me, my aim in this CCA is not entirely just for points, or for the team. Does everything just fall apart; all the training you had in the 2 years, just disappear like that? No. It doesn't. If you are really not good enough to get into the team, well i will just have to accept it (and the others as well) and train hard for the next year's competition and hopefully we can win. Yes this was the first stage of psychoing myself." That on his blog and his post really echoes something I've been thinking of for a long time, why do you have to push that barrier between the so called "team" and "non-team"? All of us are in raffles waterpolo and we're in it together has it ever occured that what you're doing can only harm the team and does no one any good. The only thing it serves to do is to boost your own ego which was severely deflated when you realised that you weren't as good as you thought yourself to be. Out of all the sec3s I dare to say that I am the most committed player of our batch and when I didn't make the team I accepted it that the teachers didn't choose me for a valid reason. I didn't blame the teachers, I didn't blame the coach and I definitely didn't blame anyone who made the team so why do you when you aren't even committed fully want to blame everyone instead of searching within yourself.
Not only that, how can you say that the RIWP B Div team is made up of just three players? I think those words that come out of your mouth are an insult to the same team you wish to be a part of. Those words are a disgrace to Raffles Waterpolo and you repeat them and support it with such confidence. Just because I might be closer to the sec4 batch doesn't make me a suckup, it simply means I bother and care. Sometimes I really wonder what pushes me so hard till I'm so tired. Only to hear comments like these especially when I didn't make the team myself. Do you think that only you can feel the pain?Flamefest over.
RIWP BDIV FTW Good Job against HCI! (:
Hmwk: PHYSICS EX.5, BIO ASSIGNMENT, ERP(overdue),
CHINESE BK REVIEW(overdue), PHILO
I need a sugarrush man.
